Sense and Sensibility

No, this is not about the Jane Austen classic novel. This is about my own failings. My occassional lack of proper SENSE and SENSIBILITY. In short, I can be insensitive, sometimes deliberately so and I know that being "deliberately" insensitive is already being MEAN. This insensitivity is borne out of an innate selfishness and sometimes deliberate disregard for other people's feelings and situations. I have hurt a number of people by my insensitivity, even some who are close and important to me. This is not an attempt to justify my failings. I don't think those can be justified. This is just my own form of apology to the many people I have hurt or angered through my insensitivity. Some might forgive me, others might not. I don't really ask to be forgiven for that is something you cannot simply ask for. Forgiveness is entirely up to the offended party. I wrote this apology to let these people know that I feel bad that I have offended, angered and/or hurt them. That I feel a certain sense of loss. That I know I cannot take back the things that I've said but I take full responsibility for them. That I accept and understand their anger. That if alienation from them is the price I have to pay for what I have done, then I humbly, albeit sadly, accept it. I don't ask to be forgiven. All I can do is hope.