Comings and Goings

I am a person who hates to throw things away. I can't seem to part with stuff, even things that are all worn out and useless. And this is currently driving my mom crazy as we are on the verge of losing precious storage space in our house. For me, there is comfort in knowing that these things are just here within my reach in case I need them (which is highly unlikely). I'm the same way with people. I hate losing them and it is very difficult for me to let go. Don't get me wrong, I don't force people to stay if they don't want to and I can accept the circumstances that has led me to lose someone. It's just that the healing takes too long for me. Maybe longer than what can be considered normal. On the outside, it appears that I've already moved on but inside, the emptiness remains. A friend of mine once told me, "Jovi, you'll have to get used to it, people come and go", and he knew what he was talking about for he himself had lost his parents and brother to an accident.

But then I've come to realize that the emptiness will remain forever because when a loved one leaves, the vacant space he/she has left in my heart can never be filled again. Yes my heart will keep on beating and it'll make room for others to come in but the vacant spaces will remain. I admire people who can let go so easily. I wish they'd tell me how.